skrellem49

waves of tears are falling when you come across my mind i see your awesome beauty like a canvas painted in my thoughts words cannot describe you nothing else could compare i look back at this short while we have known each other like a muddled scrapbook the pain and joys of knowing your love and how you're leaving me so i want to run with open arms and feel your presence holding on to me to forget our hurts and forgive our agonies just be able to love each other ourselves and every individual............. ...........but most significantly each other

i will fade away...be no more...just for you...because i cared...i only wished...you could have enjoyed...your time with me...but instead i destroyed..what we had...and ever chance from then...fuck me then...rip my heart from my chest..running seems so possible...but so wrong...a bullet would let me do that...but i know the reprocussions...a world without a boy...a young man...a something...but to you im nothing...im just a waste of time...you are leaving...so what does it matter...run far, far away...get away from your past...get away from what i did...get away from me...thats what you want...so let it be...breathe so heavily...cry the same.

i am in my mourning clothes just came from a funeral a death like no other my heart is six feet under and it hard to go on knowing you are dead wishing things could go back before this shit was said and the pain is gone away numbness has set in resurrection is an option of the tragic misfortune but it will take some miracle some time, some things to change and though i want to give up i know i must press on things will work out in the end my heart is dead and so i go looking for another it takes some time to deal it takes some hurt to heal and in the end it doesnt even matter.....

i never thought it would be this soon that i would feel this way again somehow i know its not a facade blood pumping through my vains adrenaline is no match feeling that connection 1000 miles away holding on to something so special undescribable by words amazing spectacular energizing all those so minute in comparison you have made it that way you are the wind that turns my day around a fresh breeze worth the wait and so much more but i dont really want to wait that is why not now even though i know its too soon wanting just one hug one not sandwiched by asterisks hugs everlasting lovely you are so far away like

cramped in this small space known as my stomach pains of regret will not subside hatred for myself and my actions feeds my anxiety my heart pounds louder and louder screaming for death sounds of your voice haunt my thoughts truly i am a cancer in astrology and as a disease spreading throughout the ones i care for with insurmountable hurt without a cure i am hopeless removal of my tumorous curse is the only way but then i think severing these ties will increase your pain then i hate myself even more my decisions are flawed for my mind cannot see in the abyss of my heart i need your radiance for it will light the way the wor